I recently joined an on-line Bible study sponsored by Proverbs 31 ministries at the urging of a fellow Christian sister. During the study we will be reading and reflecting on the book Made to Crave by Lysa TerKeurst. I had read the book at a church bible study previously, but cannot honestly say that I had applied many of Lysa’s suggestions and insights to my own life, or to my own relationship with God.
As I have been thinking about what I am hoping to learn and how I am hoping to grow this time around after reading it, I cannot help but think about how I want to crave more of Him in my life all the time. Not just when I need Him to solve a problem. Not just when I have a prayer request, But ALL the time! Every day. In every circumstance. In thinking of this longing, and the time I actually spend with him now (which could definitely improve), one of my favorite Bible verses comes to mind:
“What is the price of two sparrows-one copper coin? But not a single sparrow can fall to the ground without your Father knowing it.” Matthew 10:29
And why is this verse one of my favorite? It brings to mind one of the songs I remember singing so many times as a teen, and as a young adult. “I sing because I am happy. I sing because I am free. His eye is on the sparrow, and I know he watches me.” This song and verse is always in the back of my mind. I still sing it often, but it wasn’t until this week when I paid a visit to my dear friend Julie’s blog (who is a very gifted and talented songwriter, pianist, and singer!) did I start to remember all the times in my past when I sang that song. In high school during a Sister Act musical, later as a young teen mom as I sat in my son’s room rocking him to sleep, and again as a young adult as I was going through the trials of a divorce.
God, even then, before I had ever given Him my life, or had a thought of walking with Him, placed these songs in my heart at a time when his sparrow needed Him the most. The thought that He was working in me even as a 16 year old on a high school stage is so awesome to me, and is proof that God “craves” us each and every single moment, of each day. Even when we are falling. Even when we are running. Even when we have made mistake after mistake after mistake. Even when we are 16 year old kids whose thoughts are not on God at all.
If He can have time to keep his eye on me with all the other sparrows that fall and need Him too, then I can certainly learn to keep my eye on Him a little bit more too.
This sparrow wants to crave more of God. Every single moment, of every single day.