I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, and I have remained faithful. 2 Timothy 4:7
At the beginning of the year I embarked on a mission to not come up with any resolutions I would not keep, but to instead let one word shape the next year of my life. My word-fearless. I also mentioned at the start if this journey some of the things I feared-things like snakes, sharks, and being vulnerable. But the fear that is my greatest personal obstacle, and the one that keeps me from ultimately allowing God to use all of me is the fear of failure.
The same fear of failure that had me convinced I would not run that 5k I had added to my bucket list for 2014.
The same fear of failure that had me making excuses to keep from running: I don’t have time to train. I have too many problems with my back. I’m just not a distance runner.
However, God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self-discipline. 2 Timothy 1:7
As the year has so quickly moved along, I have seen just how many times fear has threatened to keep me from doing God’s work, from persevering, and pressing forward.
The fear of rejection that could have kept me from traveling outside my comfort zone. The fear of judgement that could have kept me from connecting to others. The fear of facing a less than perfect past.
It was through time spent away in my slice of heaven known as the beach, that brought some clarity to my fear of almost everything! Clarity that revealed I could either let the devil tell me I was too chicken to accomplish anything, or let God provide me with the strength to conquer all my fears…even the one that involved putting on sneakers and running with countless other folks, without any training, and in public! GASP!
So finish what you began to do. Then your willingness will be matched by what you accomplish. 2 Corinthians 8:11
And, this is where I found my endurance. In the call to finish what I had started.
To stop saying I will start running again when this happens or that happens.
To stop making excuses.
To stop the crippling fear that I will fail before I even start.
To start having faith that God will help me finish this race in the same way he has helped me finish all the races in my life. That he would give me the dedication, perseverance, and physical strength to carry on.
And that I wouldn’t just finish, but would once again accomplish more than I ever could have imagined on my own.
You know that in a race all the runners run but only one wins the prize, don’t you? You must run in such a way that you may be victorious. 1 Corinthians 9:24
It is a victory that is not found in winning, or in getting the best time, but in completing the race. Not giving up. Not quitting. Not letting fear take over.