For we are God’s masterpiece…Ephesians 2:10
Once again…I have failed.
The dishes are unwashed in the sink. Nothing has been accomplished due to pain and sickness. The house is still a mess. There are still bits of the failed attempt at dinner on the floor.
After months of just trying to get through homework. Of leaving-yet again-an item needed at one of the kids schools at home. Of forgetting to sign permission slips. Study for tests. Losing study guides. Forgetting important events.
I’ve yelled too many times at the kids. Left one in tears. The other hiding under a blanket.
Apologized one too many times. Only to turn around and do it again.
And once again, a permission slip has been lost. Something else has been forgotten. Been let down.
I’ve failed. Again. The doubts and self-contempt start to seep through, and it happens. Those thoughts start to fill my head again.
Am I strong
Beautiful
Am I good enough
Do I belong
After all
That I’ve said and done
Is it real
When I feel
I don’t measure up
Am I loved
Unworthy. Imperfect. Unloved. A failure. As a mom. As a wife. In life. In everything. With my hands and my mouth I have managed to wreck everything in my path.
It is He who made us, and we are His. Psalm 100:3
But, that isn’t what he says I am.
I am His. Even in my failure. I am loved by the King. I am called His daughter. I am called beautiful. Good enough. Magnificent. All because I belong to Him.
He doesn’t see my failures. He doesn’t count each time I was angry. Each time I misplaced something. Each time I let my kids down. He doesn’t care about the dirty dishes. He doesn’t care about the piles of laundry. He doesn’t count the times I skipped making dinner.
He does know every hair on my head. He knows my heart. He created my innermost personality and thoughts. He crafted me into the woman I am. With His hands, He made me His masterpiece. He knows I am only strong with Him. He loves me, even when I don’t love myself. Even when I think I have failed.
He reminds me…
I am strong
Beautiful
I am good enough
I belong
After all
‘Cause of what You’ve done
This is real
What I feel
No one made it up
I am loved
I am His.
Not a failure. Not a screw-up. Not a bad mom.
Of this I am sure….I am His.
Straight Up: Messy Truth 
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“Unworthy. Imperfect. Unloved. A failure. As a mom. As a wife. In life. In everything. With my hands and my mouth I have managed to wreck everything in my path.”
We all have these same struggles and can be thankful that not only does God know us, He also knows exactly what is needed in our journey that will transform us into the image of Christ. We are all a work in progress and the Master is performing His work. We need only release ourselves to HIS work and trust Him.