I’m fully known, and loved by you. You won’t let go, no matter what I do. -Tauren Wells, “Known”
I have been blessed to have some fantastic friends who have been placed in my life. The kind that just seem to get me. Who know what I need at just the right time. And, give without being asked when I need it the most.
The tribe who sends silly pics to get me through the hard days at work. Surprises you with coffee and chocolate for an even tougher Wednesday evening, because they know how hard the first “shift” was, and they know this one may just kill ya.
The ones who send the “Hey, you were placed on my heart today, and I was just checking on you,” text. The one you get at the moment when…well, your heart was breaking just a little.
The ones who know what you are going to say before you say it (and stop you from saying it). Who you can give “that look” to from across the room, and they know just what it means (and make sure to remind you to “fix that face.”).
The man who comes home with your favorite candy because he knows, he just knows it’s been a hard day, and you could use just a little “joy.”
And, God bless the ones who utter the words: “Girl, you look down. You need a hug.” Because, they can see it in your face, and they want to carry your burden.
Yes, I am blessed with some amazing friends.
But, there are still times when I wrestle the darkness, and I feel alone. When I feel people don’t get certain parts of me.
The parts that hold in tangled emotions that if shared, I fear these people who have my back, would turn theirs and leave. The passions about which I feel so deep. The desires and the burdens of my heart. The reasons why I don’t just simply give up on some folks. The reasons why I cry…a lot. Why I am angry, and want to run away screaming.
So, instead…I just hide. I hide these things from those who love me. Because, I think they couldn’t possibly get me.
And, the truth is…sometimes they won’t. But God does. He knows me. He gets me.
O Lord, you have examined my heart and you know everything about me. You know when I sit down or stand up. You know my thoughts even when I am far away. Psalm 139:1-2
He knows our anger. He knows our bitterness. Our hidden sorrows. Hurts. Passions. Desires. Those things we just don’t think we can explain to other people, and He gets us.
Even in our deepest, darkest, weepiest moods…the kicking, screaming, fighting, and crying ones. He gets us. Just like a blessed friend, He knows exactly when we need a reminder that we are loved, and sends a note slipping from the crevices of a Bible. A note, saved, but long forgotten.
Just like coffee from a friend. Chocolate from my man. Or a hug from my beloved coworker.
He gets you. Even if you think no one else does. He knows you. All of you, and He loves you just the same.