I Won’t Give Up

I went on a decluttering and cleaning spree the last couple weeks. All in an effort to get the Christmas decorations up. In my sorting I came across the vision board I put together at the beginning of the year. One I had put together with pictures and notes of things I had a desire [...]

Walk tall, and own your crown

Ever watched one of those beauty contests? You know, like Miss USA, Miss Universe, and the like? I have never been in one of these pageants. Just not my thang…but I have watched them. And one of the questions I always had-how do they keep that huge crown on their head? Pins of some sort, [...]

I’ll roll with it…and not quit

Surrender. In common terms surrender is the act of giving up one’s power over something. In relation to God, it is one’s active choice to yield all decisions and all control to Him. Surrender is a bold act, and it is brave, courageous, and often we dive into it head first thinking that the road [...]

Do it anyway

I woke up that morning, after deciding at some point in the middle of the night that I was giving up. I had finally waved the white flag of defeat. On what, exactly? Prayer. Not all prayer. Just a specific one. As I sat in my favorite chair, I glanced down at my old, worn [...]

Such a time…

For everything there is a season, a time for every activity under heaven. Ecclesiastes 3:1 When I began this blog many years ago, I began so in a caffeinated state, usually at 3am in the morning. Usually battling the wills of autism. Here it is almost 7 years later. It’s still 3am. My state is [...]

Let them remember you

“These kids are not going to remember us. So just do your job, go home, and forget about what goes on here. Because when they leave, they will forget about you.” A conversation. Said after a hopeless week. After taking home way too much junk from kids who aren’t “mine,” but some days certainly feel [...]

Waiting for the harvest

I remember all too well the day I had to make peace with a plant. I also remember the day I wanted to slam that same plant against a wall. Watch it fall to the ground in tiny pieces. I sat in an empty room, realizing that in order to have peace in tough circumstances, [...]

How much more?

How much more God? How much more do you want me to take? As I struggle daily with actually carrying out what He has asked me to do, I wrestle frequently with wanting desperately to just give up. Asking Him to just send someone else, because surely I must not be it. As I sit [...]

The growing season

For over a year now, I have grown a deep affection for plants. The reasons and circumstances for this are a story in itself, and a subject for a later time...however, I used to absolutely hate them! I could not keep anything alive. When my son and I did manage to plant anything, it either [...]

Stay in your lane

Track practice. Track uniforms. Long (and I do mean long...) track meets. That's our new life right now. For a bit I was unscathed by "sports mom" duty. Thankful for not having to drive to and fro. Or sit through my Saturday in hot sun, or frigid cold temperatures on a Tuesday night. Until I [...]